Dear Reader,
It's taken me some time to figure out what I want this blog to be and I've settled on it just being personal expression. I've been blogging since before myspace ( yes im old ) and since that…
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Turning 43
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Well here I am, 43. How the fuck did that happen? It feels like 2 minutes ago I was 21, dressed as a goth and heart deep in all the chaotic deliciousness of my first heart break. Now…
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Finding a new system
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So I never actually finished my degree. It's been on my mind lately. No, I don't want to go back and finish it. To be honest I never even wanted to go on it in the first place. I…
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Passionately average.
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Today I want to talk about the stupendous length of time I spent trying to feel special. ( side note : I totally catch myself doing this still and yes, maybe this blog is a prt of that too…
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It's O.K to grieve the person you never became
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It's O.K to grieve for the person you never became. It's O.K to sit inside of a life that you never planned to have.
I am not going to write another damn blog that's going to “inspire” you to…
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It's not too late, let yourself want it.
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I didn't realise I was ageist... until I aged. When we talk about ageism we often limit the conversation to how we view others but how much have you internalised that ageism and how might you be in…
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Anxiety attack at the gym
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For no reason, a few days ago I started to get an anxiety attack at the gym. I could feel it rise like prickly heat up my body as the usual swell of muddy and chaotic thoughts created an…
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Q1 review and writing more.
And here we are,
I've been blogging since before myspace ( kids you'll have to research that one ) which I think means in some way shape or form I've been doing this since it was even a thing on…
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Evidence to the contrary : Trusting yourself
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Trust is kind of a tricky subject for anyone that engages with any kind of mental health difference. I was always taught to trust and follow my feelings, to honour them, to let them be at their very best…
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Making peace with your pieces
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The background noise of my brain starts to elevate and it feels like a warm wall of mud flows over me. My skin literally starts to itch and I feel my breathing quicken. Sweat pours down my back which…
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6 questions over morning coffee.
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The alarm goes off and I begrudingly pull myself out of bed. Mechanically I get dressed and then I walk around my local park with the dog. I think that whole idea of “springboarding” out of bed and “attacking”…
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Creativity is essential
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Well here are in February already and if you're anything like me you're wondering what happened to the last month of your life! January's are like that which is why I never really start my year properly until February…
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Men are lonely.
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With one of my main personal goals of the year being to reconnect with current and nourish brand new friendships it has gotten me thinking a lot about loneliness, particularly male loneliness, my loneliness. Now to say I was…
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My Heart attack
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In 2019 I had a small heart attack. I remember the feeling, like a balloon had popped inside my chest. I couldn't breathe properly and my hands went cold and numb. I'd had lung collapses decades before but this…
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Well...fuck.
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Well here we are at the end of 2022 and like you I have no idea how it crept up on me. I am neck deep in all the lists and plans I have for next year and it…
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